Just when I think I’m getting by I see your face in my mind. I love you both so much, its hard to imagine life now you’re gone.
Everyone keeps saying that one day it will just hit me. It sounds strange but I really want that day to hurry up. I don’t like the feeling of not really being here, like it’s all a bad dream.
Some days I feel that I could cry all day, other days I feel this is not happening and everything is normal.
I have so many questions and concerns that I just can’t seem to get out of my mind. My biggest one being why?
I know this year is going to be hard with birthdays and Christmas and not needing to get you both gifts. Holidays and days out that you wont be enjoying with us.
Constant little reminders that seemed nothing when you were here, but now hit me like a ton weight.
Another funeral is looming closer and I wish it wasn’t so.
I know things will get easier because it has to but today, I am struggling and want you both back.